~ 36 days to go ~

Is it hard to get my smile from frenz nowadays mah?? my smile already faded le ma?? or was is just becos of Toro left sg .. i left with him?? Hua Zai gave me comment and comment about my happiness is no longer there for ppl to see .. why??

i dunno.. yesterday really really talk it out.. he knows that i am treating him coldly and he knows that i am kinda telling i have made my decision.. so guess.. i did loh.. Sorry to him.. i guess i have broke his heart again and again.. never should i gave him hope in the first place.. but i dunno why things turn out to be this way.. i told him.. you dun understand how i think and feel.. dunno about what i am talking about.. dunno what i wanted to do.. i hope to avoid the question why force me to face .. face le you will only be in the losing end.. i cannot deny i dun miss him.. i just dun tell you about it. cos i know you mind about it.. finally when i know that everytime i talk to you about him.. you did mind about it.. so i stop.. but i dun lie.. i change becos Toro.. i change not to lie.. but i know i hide things from ppl.. not telling them i was hurt.. i am unhappy and every other little thingys ran into my mind.. but they read and know through my blog.. and i know.. my blog is all about him.. cos he is the one who keep running into my mind.. how can i stop?? you made me clear who i really like.. it is also not becos i dun wanna write about you.. but to think back.. do we have anything to be remember or write for this fews days?? NO there is nothing for me to put in... i guess.. i have to put a full stop of all this.. i hope the next time when we talk we will not end up quarreling and hope we can be able to talk like frenz again...

~ First Week Without Him (7 Days) ~

Well.. i forget to talk about that saturday we went FP.. well hmm.. Neyton is cute and Dixon is a powerful singer.. glad to see everyone enjoy bah.. just too bad Dixon have to left early.. and as for Neyton.. sorry to kept calling you "Xiao Di" cos you really so cute that i will " qing bu zi jing " to disturb you.. and you dun seem to mind too.. Kawaii !!! (^_^)

Today,... me very very blur.. drink water can drink till my pants got wet.. *blush* and then me blur blur buy two burger in the morning .. in the end i have a very heavy breakfast kaoz.. so full... guess nerd nerd virus still not clear... ok got to get back to work.. cya