~ 22 days without him by my side ~

Hmm 3 days did not chat with him le.. miss his voice and the way how he makes me laugh with all the conversation we have.. why huh?? hmm fallen so hard so fast this time.. lol.. i guess it is more than lex.. and another who i should never bring it up in my blog again.. cos those memory is not good.. and i have done my part to complete cut off everything with him.. hope they be fine and happy ever after..

This morning i had a dream.. a bit not that good one.. erm it is about Thomas's grandma.. haiz.. suddenly dream of her.. so got worry and so "qiao" thomas sms good morning today so i thanks him for that nice good morning sms and ask how is his grandma... heard from him, she fall down again last week.. got quite worry.. haiz.. old people must care more for them.. this is not the first time she fall.. why can't someone look after her, by her side??

haha why am i thinking all this?? He does not relate to me anymore le.. well i still remember Grandma treat me very good bah.. still frenz ma.. hope he find his happiness too..

Chat with Hua zai last night.. hmm not bad cos we did not got angry of anything or even quarrel bah.. that is a good thing right? (or all this is just what i am thinking?) i dunno.. i did talk to him about my recent part time job too.. well he once work that b4.. asking for his opinion.. ok loh.. now is just trying my luck whether i get the job.. well he did tell me some pros and cons.. but guess i just ask him to give me some hope and he start to console me.. thanks k.. i dunno whether will you be reading cos i know you have been avoiding cos dun wanna be sad.. i know.. so well this thanks maybe you might not see it bah.. (-_-")

Just read a few ppl blog.. well nerd is busy hardly online too.. and kor sometime go into msn he not online.. but i guess i am too busy too.. cannot chat with them online..as office ppl even Jane also cannot let them see i am using.. or else i will be death.. haiz.. so just too bad.. but still have wlny ma.. i got chat inside sometimes loh..

This sunday got sentosa outing.. was thinking to go one.. but i am just afriad Toro be back by then and i want to be with him.. wondering will he go with me?? i dunno dun dare to wish cos everytime he will say go with your frenz i go find my own program.. but he does not know i dun wanna left him alone.. i hope he could go with me... but never mind i dun wanna force cos it will not be a happy one if i force..

To balance both Him and outing i will still chose him.. so it does not matter.. next time still can go one ma.. (^_^) ok ok got to start work le.. tata