~ 29 days to go ~

It is actually two weeks ever since i last seen Toro.. well nothing much still misses him a lot.. but why am i here so early to update my blog?? cos maybe i dun have a chance to log in again le bah.. I be quitting here leh.. that means i be jobless soon.. and i got a lots of things to think about.. have to start planning to find a new job.. all this i did not tell him last night.. i dun wanna him to worry.. but i am not sure will he come online to see my blog.. but well.. when he ask or till the day i see him again then i will tell him.. 4 weeks more only mah.. less than a month.. in the mean time i should be able to get a job..

Now i hate growing up.. there a frenz tell me.. dun look at problem as problem but guess i cannot.. cos it is problem and it needs to solve.. Money is the most evil thing but Money help you to survive too.. never ever be able to leave without that.. i am stupid cos i even got the idea to end my life.. like that my family be able to get a sum of money and the flat they are living will not need to pay anymore.. very stupid of me to think of that.. but when human have seen this world has been so hopeless i guess they think the same way as me too.. but i am just not walk the end of road yet.. i still can solve those problems which i just maybe cannot accept it..

Yesterday really need a person to chat.. i am really very down.. i call Hua zai to talk.. just simple tell him i need someone to talk to forget my trouble and thanks. he did not say much abt each of us.. we just talk about others things ...

Wish toro was here.. den i might be that miserable cos he can be the one to look at the problem and solve or just give solution to me.. but i dun wanna him to worry.. haiz..

Well i gonna go back to work.. we shall see how the situation will be.. Take Cares Folks
Will Always Love You All..