It is a dreadful monday again
Super tired and sleepy, best of all I miss my alarm and so I did not take bus to work instead MRT .. consider thinking "what a great start of the day and week"

It is hard to behave nothing went wrong with him.. over the weekend (actually only sunday as he was back on Saturday @ 11pm, I pretend to be sleepy) I claims that i am not in the mood to go back his home and he say fine.. he will travel back to his home alone..
At that moment I dunno what I am thinking .. and maybe does not even know what I want.. I was like.. oh so he prefer me not to head home at all with him now..
Actually I guess he just trying to accommodate me as since i mention i do not wanna head back.. but why can't he insist .. to show that he need me for his companion home ..
It make me feel I am not and no longer needed..
I stay quiet the whole day.. moody.. but not showing any mood out.. even when my mom bought the food back home.. my sis make a remarks like " oh just now was your noodle that make the whole bus so stink.." I was like :s.. in the very end.. I did not finish the noodle not even 1/3 of it.. and imagine that was actually my first meal for the whole sunday which I had it @ 2pm.. lihai bah and I dun feel a bit of hunger at all..
I had my dinner alone.. without asking anyone eating.. i simply living in the own world where I take my own bowl and scoup the rice and sit outside the dinner table to eat..
Mom saw and stand up to eat with me too.. he just after that took rice and veg and walk into the room to eat.. I wanted to give up eating.. but no one to give my little rice to.. and have to force it down into my throat..

Monday was just have to be cheerful and not showing out all those trouble that I had to others in the office.. it is unfair to show/share to anyone my unhappiness .. they does not have the responsibility to have to take care of my trouble too.. right..

Still I hope to hide in the little cave of mine to sort my mind out..