Ever think .. When is the last time you tell you Dear, I miss you??
When is the last time you did something sweet for him?
Wonder from where start, the honeymoon period is gone?

Humans.. becos of time getting together is more frequent and more chances to see each other .. our little acts to show the other party we miss and care for him is lesser.. Slowly it turn to be taking for granted he should be there when you most needed him and he should be the one who care for you most instead, isn't it be two ways...

Being with Dear has already reaching 11 months.. and it is two more months to a year.. have been looking forward to it.. But i do reflect on what i have done all this time.. reading our past sms till the most recent one.. the sweetness has faded..those romantic sms already seem to be far away from us.. and i always make him angry.. haiz.. why am i always make those ppl around me angry.. becos of my temper?? I will try to change k.. been controlling a lot of my "xiao jie pi qi" .. Thanks Dear for giving in to me sometime.. I love you..

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How is your weekend going on?? My saturday a bit sat bah.. Friday Dear went to frenz house to do project so i was alone.. was watching vcd till very very tired then sleep.. I woke up very early on saturday to prepare breakfast for Dad.. then cannot sleep le.. i decided to give Dear a surprise .. i prepare myself and go find him.. This is a mistake bah.. i did not plan to go up his house as i was told i am not to go ppl house.. but dear dad know i am going.. and insist me to go up.. becos of this thing i know i put dear in a very diffcult position.. at time i really wish to turn my head and head home instead.. but i know i cannot.. like that the relationship between me and his family will be worse.. haiz.. so drag myself to his home.. on my way.. i try hard to walk very slow.. and controlling my tears not to drop.. but guess i fail.. the moment i got into his room.. i hug dear and broke down..i am scare.. i am scare i cannot see my dad.. why have to force me.. haiz..

SUnday.. we went to "bai bai" and then we all head to amk to have our lunch.. so tired.. my back is breaking.. lucky got dear there to hold me .. if not i sure collasp.. and then we went home to rest.. and not to be miss.. mahjong.. ha ha.. i won.. this time the most.. lady luck is with me bah.. but hor.. no money to claim de.. haha just play for fun..