Fifth Month Anniversary

Today is our Fifth Month being together le.. i should be feeling happy... as after so many things happen between us we are still together.. but Toro san i have to say.. the following months we are going to go through will be very very hard le.. *you should know why* i hope you be able to stand by me and go through it with me.. but if in future you find that you were unable to take it anymore.. or you think there is other better gers out there who do not need you to worry and think so much i will not stop you.. I have to say.. Thanks Dear for loving me all this while.. putting up with my temper and caring me like a Princess...

Yesterday went to the clinc with my dad.. things not turning any good as we wish.. there is something growing inside my dad liver.. Whatever i can do now is to wait.. wait till monday.. when he see a specialist then we know the result.. maybe Toro san did not know.. my mind keep flashing the words the doctor had tell me.. indeed i am very scare.. and i might not able to hold my worry and sadness anymore...i might just break down anytime.. a few times yesterday i have nearly about to broke down... i know i cannot.. i am the only pillar.. i cannot collapse.. I HAVE TO BE STRONG!! No matter what.. a lot of thigns has been unsaid to my dad yet.. i hope in the near future i will still be able to tell him a lot a lot of my life things.. Yesterday i saw my dad smiling .. although he was in pain when he smile i cherish that it has been a long time i have not seen him smile le..




I really wish i am the one to suffer and not them...