It is Thu liao... last thursday of 2004

Well... so as the title state ... it has come to the last week of December and last week of the year 2004... so the next time i wrote my blog be on 2005 .. (*_*)

was still thinking what to buy for Louis... to have a deep impression of me?? haha just want him to remember me so that if one day we lost contact again... he have something in memory and maybe when he see the things will call me again? (^_^)...

So finally decide to do a cross stitch of pouch for him.. hmm.. but hor like not much use for him.. (you cannot expect him to bring a cute cute pouch out right) very funny right... so hmm maybe for him to kept at home bah.. sob... i going to lose sleep today just to do that... who ask me to last minute... haiz... never mind maybe find someone to chat with and do.. or else really damn sian.z..

New year eve be tomolo... planning to go MS to eat steamboat... but just 3 of us... but i hope to be able to meet Louis... so that i am able to pass him my present to him when the clock strike twelve... so romantic right? hmm... not sure whether can come true or not... i in fact not a romantic person.. but will have dreams.. at least this small dreams i can fullfill i will try to do it...

Yesterday got a shocking news.. haiz.. it involve me nia lah... but..haiz.. really i dun wish to get into relationship cos i am really scare... and i still keep dreaming of him.. like ytd night... i dream of him park his bike at my lift and was sitting by the stair... kinda ridiculous but... dream mah... and he sms me to talk... i was so shy and scare...

i dun understand why... this time i got so hurt and scare of relationship... so it be better not to hurt anyone now.. even giving them any hope.. cos i dunno what will happen in the future. Like i tell my bro... if have fate to be together even after a fews years sperate we be still able to get together so no need to think so much...