KTV On 28/12/04

Tuesday night ... just after christmas and so still have the mood to enjoy although i know i should go back home to rest and sleep.. haha but well nowadays no matter how long i sleep it still not seem enough for me... i am still so tired... so i decide to go ktv since Jeremy say he want to go again...

I am feeling that Jeremy is so quiet when he come out... it is so different from the phone conversation Jeremy.. I dun understand why he like to keep quiet dun join in the fun with us and sit in a corner.. I try a lot of times to make him talk and cheer up it seem so hard... after a while he will go back to the quiet guy again... haha so i gave him a nick.. "zi bi zhen de xiao hai" wahahah :p

I really enjoy and so happy last night... it has been a long time i did not have those heart beating fast feeling leh.. and the best of all... i feel shy too... hahah erm.. well i mention b4.. i get to know back a frenz which lost contact for a fews years.. okay i shall call him by his inital "L" ... well he resemble "him" a lot alot... and it is so lucky he was having his off days ytd and a surprise he would call to meet me.. but why so late den call.. kinda miss him when he left the ktv... and as for my heart beat... haha dun tell you all what happen... but at least he respect me and we were like falling in love... hahaha but in real life are we really able to be in love?? (-_-)??

I read his profile in friendster again... more throughly .. i want to remember by heart what song he like and his feeling now... guess he is scared of love now.. and i dunno... what am i going to do... to forget a person is to get another one to forget the one you were suppose to forget.. so am i going to do that so that he be able to get over his ex.. it is really kinda sad to me when i saw his eyes fill with sadness when mention of his ex.. on the other side... i dunno whether am i able to make him happy for the lifetime... or will i made him sad too just like how others treat him.. i dun want that.. that why i dun dare to move forward...

Actually i have not really sms him for quite long.. since friday christmas bah... reason why i dun? haiz... normally took him a long time to reply.. and i always just sms those misses to him.. but guess he might think it is just my sweet talking and i still dunno do he like me or have feeling for me too or not.. so scared to get reject...and this friday... will be new year eve... and his birthday.. is on the next day 01/01/2005...very special right? still thinking what to buy for him..??? haha the most easy way is tied a ribbon on myself and present to him.. whaahhaha how i wish i could do that... but i really want to buy a gift that hope when he see it will think of me.. heehee a bit bad of me hor... but i am selfish dun forget... so i hope the one i like will think of me too.. ;p

Okay lah ... i shall stop here... wish me luck and hope everything turn out well for my frenz too... you know who i am talking about .. yes it is you all.. k... Take care (^_^)