A bad day (yesterday)

well i dunno what come into me ... maybe becos jie send me an sms "miss you" i was shock cos guess he getting deeper into the relation with me.. i have to stop him.. i cannot commit to anyone now.. but in the end i spoilt the day for us as both turn out to be very unhappy becos of me.. sorry..

Thomas finally cannot take it and bring out why i always ignore him recently.. i dunno frankly speaking i really dunno.. but i feel really i should let him go.. although we have happy moment i guess this fews years there are more unhappy than happy bah.. (-_-) he told me he want to find a gal that can be his future wife.. yet the person he find want only to play now and not settle.. deep in my heart i feel pain i cry but not letting him know.. i guess last night was a painful night for three person cos three did not sleep well after that bah...

IF

In this world there is a lot of "IF"

If i did not left Thomas i will not get to know Jasper, Mingjie, Ah Wee and i will not go out that often also...
If i am still with Thomas i will not get hurt by "him"
If i am with Thomas guess i am already preparing to get married already...

So much of IF and yet there nothing we could do to turn back the time.. but i never regret to know you all guys k.. and "him" not from him i will not know i am actually so bad and hurtful when i break others heart... not for "him" i will not know.. misses is a so hurtful and painful thingy.. i will never want to hurt anyone..