Ok i am back again.. Now going to off work in a few mins time.. hmm was thinking some bgr thingy.. i guess Dear will go back home ask me again le.. ha ha.. first hope dear today has spend his day well.. as he keep telling me very very stress.. the course he do not really understand what the teacher is teaching and have problem.. cos lack of experience.. well today only first day k.. no worried.. you will understand better toward time..

Ok what am i thinking right? erm.. how to maintain a good relationship?? actually i dunno how too.. from my first bf , i always have this thinking.. if so unhappy in a relationship then breaking off will be a better idea.. and it ended up.. i got a lot of unhappy outcome of bgr as i always bring up the "break" when i am unhappy or we quarrel but from Dear i learn a lesson.. never say break so early and without thinking about it.. becos of i think i began to step behind and not saying break up with him .. becos of him i learn to cherish and be more understanding to him and not always be selfish only think of myself.. when he is in anger.. i should not talk more and wait till he is cool down b4 i talk to him again.. but the last thing i can always never learn to be good.. haiz.. to listen to him and do not do those thing that he is unhappy about.. he is a special guy.. which dun like his gf to " pao tou lu mian" he mind a lot.. which in the past i stupidly thought he would like the idea i be a model.. anyway " cheng nian wang shi" no point to say again.. haiz.. but till now i still controlling and learning not to do those things he dun like.. as i am very rebel and those things is what i want most now.. but i have to stop.. :)

I guess no point keep bringing up break up in a relationship bah.. Dear also hear me say until sian le.. ask me to stop.. haha but when quarrel he always ask me what i want.. haiz i just can't bear to say i want you to leave me anymore..

"Wo Jiu Xiang Zhe Yang De Lai Zhe Ni Yi Bei Zi"