Thu 9am

== Towards Holiday 5 More Days ==

Today dear be late again.. though he say 5 mins late.. i am not sure.. just dun understand why can't he buck up and be on time other than the first day of class he is on time and early?? hor hor is the school really that miserable or you simply nua till the extreme?? haiz.. who tell me he wanna achieve alot alot of things? who tell me he wanna be better than others? and now who is the one so nua? haiz.. maybe he has not start to work in the society bah.. no sense of responsible?? *thinking* things will not be fulfill if you have only the think of it and not make it into reality!!! Dear please... Jia You.. Please work toward my "Tai Tai Future" wahaha.. (talk so much actually is for my own huh.. )

Phew yesterday night manage to eat some kfc though.. kinda full after eating my dinner.. but Dear not.. cos his rice is about the same as me.. how can fill him with my portion?? haiz.. my ah jie (this mean my sis ah) always wanna cook just right.. but she no think what if someone not enough ? that day super hungry?? haiz.. say so much also no used.. haha we went TOY R US @ Suntec de.. zzzzzzzz we try to look for a toy "Atm Bank" though we found it in the end but decide not to buy .. suppose to make it into our piggy bank.. as that toy suppose to accept our currency and calculate the total everytime we deposit.. but.. i dun think it show.. or it is not the same one my colleague was talking (actually my colleague say that "ATm Bank " she bought it for her sons de) haha about so we decide not to buy.. and we already so big le.. still buy a three years old kid toy...zzzzzzzz... kinda.. BUT a trip to the toy dept. make me realise nowaday toys is so different from our time de le... and it was made until so real.. the micowave i press the cook button.. it really turn inside.. "KAWAII " ok ok i know.. i sound stupid.. hehe but just cannot help to shop inside and play with the toys.. hehe..

hehe guess what .. i must be everyday so free to post everyday recently right?? haha erm.. i think so too.. later going to suntec to walk a while b4 going home.. craving for kfc now.. who to buy for me to eat.. keke..

so fast.. Wednesday already.. two more days to end Dear misery of CCNA and 6 more days to our happy day in Genting.. Hope the day come fast.. *yawn* i am so tired.. terrible need a break badly..

haiz.. i dun think any of my ex colleague know my blog in here.. maybe can rant a bit of my unhappiness in here? ha ha.. was kinda upset to know they still talk about me in the office.. haiz.. so stress like what my colleague say.. even though you have resign your spirit is still in office.. hor hor i never know my influence so big hor.. *sign*

Anyway going to off work soon le loh.. 5.17 pm le.. haha just now Mr MJ msn me.. ask me going for a holiday ah.. haiz if not i so look forward will keep count down?? I still waiting for my sunglasses.. keke and glad to know he has a gf.. when you come pass me my things bring your gf along lah.. and i wanna see the evo 8.. haha she drive you sit?? haha no lah.. but cannot couple drove two car right?? anyway.. i shall wait k.. (^_^)

**6 Days To Genting**

Sleepy Tuesday @ 2.30pm

*yawns* what have i been doing last night, why am i so tired.. haha dun think dirty k.. yesterday went home straight to cook for the two kids.. haiz i have become "huang lian po" le.. *signz* well but my life should be "'tai tai" de lehz.. so wahaha tonight i no need to rush back le.. cos sis not going to take up a second job le.. she is going to stay home again.. lol.. but to all who read my blog k.. got any salesgal lobang tell me k.. i intro my sis go work..

Last night surprise lehz.. Dear rest very very early.. guess the course is getting up his brain.. very stress so very tired.. and this morning even sleep till quite late too.. aiyo.. late again.. just a day of puntcal then bad habit come again.. must push more le.. but at least he very good boi.. no more playing game.. haha maybe too tired to play huh? *grins* glad that today he began to mix with his classmate.. and guess what.. all his classmate no smoke de leh..and so we start a small conversation on this topic; (Blue is Dear , Pink is Me)

"eh intro your classmates to me leh.. no smoke one very good wor"

"i not good meh?"

"no lah.. but i like guys who dun smoke ma.. you good.. but you dun smoke more better"

"I no smoke ah.. " (open eyes tell lies)

"ya lah .. ya lah.. you NO smoke lah.. you are the best " ---- end of conversation

(-.-") so lame.. and so i go along with him haha who is the lame one??

haiz.. (sign again) i am so sian at work.. i am waiting for days to come.. yippee.. thinking of the trip make me excited.. what i should buy lah.. what i should bring.. but there is one more thing to be excited of too.. WEDDING!!!! hehe.. not mine lah.. why you all look so shock.. my ex colleague Kim san is going to have his custom wedding this sunday.. hehe got camera so i can zilan and take alot of photo that day.. keke.. He be going to have a malay style of wedding.. so it be in the noon and this is my first time going to a malay wedding too.. very kanchiong spider earlier few week i already start to think what to wear le..

Days to Holiday :

7 DAYS (^_^)

Ok i am back again.. Now going to off work in a few mins time.. hmm was thinking some bgr thingy.. i guess Dear will go back home ask me again le.. ha ha.. first hope dear today has spend his day well.. as he keep telling me very very stress.. the course he do not really understand what the teacher is teaching and have problem.. cos lack of experience.. well today only first day k.. no worried.. you will understand better toward time..

Ok what am i thinking right? erm.. how to maintain a good relationship?? actually i dunno how too.. from my first bf , i always have this thinking.. if so unhappy in a relationship then breaking off will be a better idea.. and it ended up.. i got a lot of unhappy outcome of bgr as i always bring up the "break" when i am unhappy or we quarrel but from Dear i learn a lesson.. never say break so early and without thinking about it.. becos of i think i began to step behind and not saying break up with him .. becos of him i learn to cherish and be more understanding to him and not always be selfish only think of myself.. when he is in anger.. i should not talk more and wait till he is cool down b4 i talk to him again.. but the last thing i can always never learn to be good.. haiz.. to listen to him and do not do those thing that he is unhappy about.. he is a special guy.. which dun like his gf to " pao tou lu mian" he mind a lot.. which in the past i stupidly thought he would like the idea i be a model.. anyway " cheng nian wang shi" no point to say again.. haiz.. but till now i still controlling and learning not to do those things he dun like.. as i am very rebel and those things is what i want most now.. but i have to stop.. :)

I guess no point keep bringing up break up in a relationship bah.. Dear also hear me say until sian le.. ask me to stop.. haha but when quarrel he always ask me what i want.. haiz i just can't bear to say i want you to leave me anymore..

"Wo Jiu Xiang Zhe Yang De Lai Zhe Ni Yi Bei Zi"

Good morning.

. 8 more days to countdown

How is everyone weekend?? Saturday went to Sakura @ Clementi Woods Parks to have our lunch.. the view there not bad.. lucky is aircon no need to eat with the insects haha but the food overall not that great though.. not like what they have put.. haiz the salmon sashimi was not that fresh and i guess what attract me to eat is the paper steamboat.. the soup is nice.. did not manage to try the pasta.. cos i order cream mushroom.. in the end alot of cheese on top..so no no but Dear finish it.. not sure is it nice.. he did not put much comment.. overall i guess Sakura have to improve their way of cooking though .. :) hehe of cos we drove there.. but had a hard time to look for the entry to the carpark.. zzzzzzzz and after our lunch we head to suntec to shop.. went to Fossil to have Dear watch battery change but need to wait for some days.. ha ha so he still got to wait.. but now at least he borrow from his bro a watch.. and shop in U2.. already saw a few tops i like.. just waiting for this day to come.. Dear bought a blazer.. so handsome now.. haha got time ask him wear le i snap snap snap k.. *grins*

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Sunday was a bad day.. a bad memoris day.. it make me recall back alot of thing.. make me feel dad was alive again.. have never left us at all.. The reason why in the morning i keep a distance with Dear dad as i scare i cry out.. treat him as my dad.. tears are hard to fight back and memories unable to erase... how i wish.. i wish.. maybe i am a bad luck person bah.. those who are close with me always get hurt.. hope Dear dad be fine soon .. I know he will :) right Dear?

Overall.. Saturday I enjoy it alot.. me and Dear talk alot about our own family and we seem like open up quite a lot to each other le.. today is Dear first day attending CCNA hope he will not doze off in class.. and why isn't he online yet.. haha..

ahem.. now is morning 9am.. just started work not long.. but i got no mood to work.. anyway nothing much to do at work today too.. so sleepy now.. haiz not becos i sleep late.. i dunno why too.. miss my last night show.. only watch half of the CID i already went to see Mr Zhuo.. and my "Tuo Qiang Shi Jie" i did not catch a bit of it too.. argh.. why i so pig???

Ok back to today.. this morning i saw a 'bian Tai' while he is on bus.. he bring out his laptop and watch movie bah (i assume, did not really go see what he is watching as he is sitting in front of me) but the feeling is .. he is trying to show off to ppl loh.. haiz this stunt i did it with dear afew times le.. but you think.. morning leh.. alot ppl need to sit loh.. he is there took up the whole seat.. haha but the bus is not really occupy today though.. haha just "bu shuang" lol.. very bad hor..

aiyo aiyo.. now my dear still not online yet. I am so boring at work.. he must be enjoying this good weather at home sleeping.. haiz.. how i wish i can sleep too.. keke ok bu yao xian mu.. tomolo i be able to sleep le.. hehe...

Days to Genting :

10 Days

Boring day at work

ello.. now is 3.38pm Thursday 22/06/06, right now in office shaking leg nothing much to do.. i guess tomolo will be the same too.. so boring.. towards month end i will sit in office for nothing.. except surfing around in the net to see got what things have promotions... haha and learn how to be tai tai in future hor dear.. *grins*

haiz.. last night stay home all night again.. try talking to sis about her work and family.. she dun seem quite happy with it.. but though after that she occasionally still got walk into our room to talk to us.. but really not sure she got listen in what we talk about or not.. haiz

Dun think of the unhappy and think of this saturday bah.. wee... this saturday going to Suntec to do some shopping and then go clementi wood to have lunch.. hopefully and go as what we have plan, the main factor is .. dear is able to drive his dad car.. keke.. already made some arrangement just have to see his dad agree ma.. hee hee this morning kinda happy.. I strike 4D.. though it is just 20 bucks from ibet i am still happy.. some money to put into pocket.. so dun ask me to give you all treat hor.. just 20 dollars treat myself also not enough le.. haha..

hmm counting down and down.. hope the days come faster.. :

11 days to HONEYMOON (haha joking)

ha ha you all must be thinking of this too right.. i put the date 4 july go oversea in the end i count down the date does not tally.. why you all no tell me.. haha so the actal countdown date should be


12 DAYS TO HOLIDAY

15 Days to go..

heehee.. saw my blog.. now got scroll photo le hor?? my Dear help me do de.. very fast loh.. but i am trying to get rid of the click thingy.. but must wait till i got time i redo those photos.. maybe put all our genting trip photo up bah.. waha very zilan nowadays.. yesterday when i reach home i took out the digi cam and snap myself twice.. haha .. but the connector not with us.. unable to upload into lappie.. but ok lah.. i lazy to do that now too..

Haiz.. my life getting worse bah.. maybe it is time to grow up.. once again.. me and Dear going to be bound at home again.. not becos of doggie ( i am sure Dear willing to stay home becos of doggie de) but my sis kids... as she now got another part time job to work till 10 pm every night.. she has no time to take care of kids and we in turn have to be nanny.. haha give me a chance to beat the kids more likey.. i very "xiong de hor" ," bu ting hua wo jiu ta ta ta" wahahah evil Ah Yi.. *bleh* so have to stay home more instead go dear home to nua too.. and not to forget the whole loads of house work to do.. never expect my mom will help.. she simply lazy.. maybe next time i can tell her you dun cook too lah.. we ownself cook.. dun make yourself until so "wei da" and "xinku" to cook for us.. (-.-")

Looking forward for holiday.. Dear already start asking a lot of question and planning to sleep less during we are having holiday must play hard hard to the extreme,, haha like that still call relac..

*sad* I cannot put comment in nerd nerd blog.. dunno why.. i can read but unable to put comment.. the box keep not coming up.. so sad.. try a few time but still fail..

*Happy ^_^*

Going for a short holiday to Genting.. Finally we bought the tickets at JP.. hee hee and persuade the lady to give us more discount.. though just a 10 dollars also happy.. :) then we went to JP de Pet Station to see doggie.. hmm i like the MS a lot.. look like my Georgie.. has been keep thinking of the doggie this few days.. but i know.. though i am able to buy it in a cheap price i got no time for him.. I will miss you de doggie.. *muacks* so dear all.. i will go holiday on 4 July to 6 July... dun come find me during these dates.. though i dun think anyone will come find me too.. and to MJ.. my sunglasses... hump... haha now going to count down the days to go le.. Dear very excited on the trip as this is the first time he go oversea with gf.. hee hee glad i am the one to be the first one.. keke... 16 days to go.. hmm i think i got to starting packing my home to shift to Genting.. haha (there a chinese saying.. woman go oversea is like shifting their home to the place, too many thing to bring )

Weekend

Has been slacking the whole saturday and sunday.. after work went straight to dear home then nua all the way till sunday.. waha pig right.. bo bian last week has been workign 7 days a week.. so time to relac . Sunday was Father Day.. so bad of us.. no buy cake for dear dad.. just stay home.. somemore still need dear dad cook.. though i did propose i cook but he ask.. what position i am cooking,, i erm.. ah.. huh.. wahaha I feel.. recently i am more happy le.. began to feel back those feeling i use to have with dear.. we joke and disturb each other.. maybe everything talk it out is good .. sorry for keeping those inside my heart so long.. and hope.. the other couple also will get better.. not sure is the news accurate or not.. keke..

Bad Friday..

Had a bad tiff with bf.. but now better le.. at least talk out what i have been unhappy about.. He say he will change.. till the day i say ya this is the bf i want then he will say sorry.. thinking will he remember that or not.. anyway sorry doesn't mean a lot to me too.. too much sorry make me feel meaningless in saying that.. almost broke off becos of this.. but i still kept the last line there.. not to be the one to say.. cos my heart is breaking too..

Well bf found a way to vent his anger.. haha he torn up the NYP jacket.. *oops* hoping i would stop saying about that woman .. i am just giving an example loh.. why i cannot say?? but good thing is he know a way to vent.. the next thing is.. should i get more clothes (which is bought by her) for him to tear when he is angry or try out other thign to let him vent out his anger.. haha ok ok joking.. no more angry matter.. i hope so.. Happily Ever After hao ma?

Friday le.. so fast.. but sian this week my duty so got to come back to work.. burn my saturday again.. anyway this week nothing in program.. so going to slack at home..

Blog still not doing good.. nerd nerd comment my photo look a bit weird.. so i still need to find some way to fix it bah.. as for the blogging.. hmm nothing much to blog leh.. oh yah.. yesterday Dear cook western for me.. as per request.. very full loh.. cos still got wipped and salad.. thinking of it.. kinda miss my salad.. yum yum.. tonight going to finish it.. wahahah

Then night time we decide to earn some extra money and went to bet on WC..zzzzzzz end up we place wrong bet..lose 10 bucks.. so heart pain.. waahah win lose only a line.. just hoping to earn more income k dear.. dun so bu gao sin le.. we will win back de.. *winks*

Wednesday.. mid day of the week.. still feeling very tired after last week non stop working without any day of rest.. and on monday i woke up at 12 am after i cannot tahan and fall asleep at 10pm.. but not to watch soccer but to pray my dad..

Times do really flies.. it has been hundred days since my dad had pass away.. we try to cook some dishes what he use to like to eat and shift his favourite chair back to the place he use to sit and smoke.. i wonder.. how is he le.. sometime i do still dream of him.. i dunno how to say is he fatter or thinner.. i know that him.. but my dream is always he die.. and never tell me anything more.. I miss him.. very... when i am alone.. my mind wonder.. back to the past and think of him.. and tears will just drop.. and i have tried hard to hold it bad.. stupid right??

Last night , me and dear was home alone.. actually for this few days will be lonely too.. my sis and family went to malaysia.. will be only back on friday morning.. so this few days me and dear have to settle our meal on our own.. and Dear now still so shiok.. sleeping in the cozy bed without anyone to disturb him le.. so good... Lucky i have him by my side now... if not.. the whole house only me at home.. kinda scary.. haha thinking Ju-On part 3 will shown at my home ma.. ok i admit.. when human get older will tend to be more timid.. last time i use to be alone at home.. now cannot.. too much horror movie seen.. my mind will keep wonder around..

Just stalk someone blog again.. haha bo bian too boring at work ba.. or can say kinda KPO.. haha but it is someone related to me de bah.. (in a way) haha ya agree with him.. cherish the ppl around b4 you lose them... but how many ppl can learn to do that?? and .. always having the good life of what you have now.. will you change when nothign happen?? I feel that.. one in a lifetime.. hope to do something i really like and have the fun i want.. maybe like that i will not die in regret.. ha ha.. so what is your opinion??

Just redo my blog.. how is it?? still trying to fix the bits and pieces.. specially made it for Dear.. hope he see this and smile..

Thursday le..

Kinda boring now.. nothing much to do at work as i finish all my documents le.. so decide to come in blog a while and try to solve the blog problem as nerd nerd unable to scroll down to read my blog so only way is i make my window bigger.. but it seem i had fail.. haiz..

5pm exactly.. has been thinking alot about work recently.. not the stress i have been taking and actually there is not much stress for import too.. just that some changes might be made in office and wondering will i want to go along with it or have to find a new job again and start everything anew again.. i hate to restart everything.. have to know all colleague again.. dunno what kind of person they are and re learn everything.. and most of all.. get the pay i want.. though here.. is still not the amount i want.. but from comfirmation till then i have to restart everthing again.. haiz.. then no AWS no bonus.. zzzzzzzz i hate it..

While the SuperBand is showing and DOTA winning, "da da" off goes all the electricity of the house.. oops.. what had happen.. all came walking out to the living room and waited for the bdae boy to walk out of the room.. Once he step out and asking is it trip electric again.. we started to sing "Happy birthday to you..."

First was the surprise look.. and then the look of happiness on his face.. hope this surprise really surprise dear.. have been thinking.. as i did not buy any gift for him so at least made a surprise bah.. seeing the look and the smile he use to have.. i guess i did it.. Dear can maintain the smile always?? I love to see that..

That is how i spend Dear bdae yesterday.. a short 30 mins commotion of black out and surprise bdae ice cream cake.. keke..

Saturday again.. for a very very long time i have not been blogging on saturday le.. hhaha getting lazy.. Yesterday did not went to work.. why?? not sick.. went to AIKRA to queue up early in the morning to buy stuff.. ended up.. when it is about our turn.. the things i want is all sold out.. so sad.. but i still manage to grab some of the things home... haha bought a Microwave oven for home and two rice cooker (one for home one for dear home) and then for myself instead of digital camera i got a 5.1 home theatre system.. ok loh.. yesterday night try out the system not bad.. and i manage to link my PS with the system.. so when we play Fatal Frame the ghost appearance will be scary enough.. hahah

Oh ya.. we got 3 new PS2 games for "hougang central" haha manage to find a stall selling.. at first wasn't sure able to find or not cos it is through my guessing in the end BINGO keke saw the happiness in Dear face make whatever he accuse to me is okay.. must be thinking what accuse right?? on our way to buy i suddenly think of there might be two places call "Hougang central" cos we dunno the person who bought it first only manage to guess that place... and Dear was not kinda happy loh.. and also.. complaining about the route to the shop kinda long and say there might not have loh.. keke good thing is i did not guess wrongly.. the difference is when i request to eat curry chicken noodle instead of the origin story mango.. i still get to eat it.. haha Dear will not stop me from eating anything as long as i am happy *grins* keke that is why .. i am gettin fatter keke.. good right??

Today is already 01/06/06.. restarting the count again.. which mean we just past one month being together again.. nothing much.. no celebration.. unlike those past few times.. we have already got use to be together le bah.. not even a word.. happy anniversary.. though i am not the kind who really care about all this.. but can't help to think.. do you really remember what the date today?? not surprise you might forget.. you seem to be so kept in a corner.. no more taking note of the date.. But once again i have to say.. Happy One Year and A Month Anniversary..

http://www.babyhome.com.tw/bb/74940

above is while i read Wo Bao and saw this story.. out of curious i went into the webby to see.. can't help myself i cry.. touching for the love of the parent and sad for the baby too..

How i wish i could write to my dad, and dad will reply me too.. even though evey morning i do talk to him.. i hope he could hear my talking too..