Taken b4 going out for the dinner.. I pre tied my hair b4 he came back.. haha so kan chiong but ended up night time all my fringe all drop back to the front le.. 

Back at home.. Intend to watch movie but see our eyes is so "panda" so decide to come back rest than go out...  

Xmas Eve !!! Quite blur due to using handphone to take.. will scan again.. actually the one with plain background we did not chose that photo.. but i think machine faulty so it came out instead the one we chose.. see Dear getting more artist le right?? The Black and Green background design by him.. 

Busy busy... too busy to update?? no lah.. actually waiting to update the Christmas eve photo.. and not to forget those gifts i have from Nerd nerd and frenz.. but yesterdya too tired so did not update.. maybe tomolo den update or wait till saturday i am at home then i update..

How i spend my Christmas? Mostly at home.. or go out with family together.. sob sob this coming week no more le.. cos dad no more car.. travel will have a problem.. sob sob.. Hmm maybe now most of the time will take cab.. unless i am able to buy a car.. but what the use? when i dun dare to drive haha..

Cockroach Alert!!!
Dunno why recently my home appear alot of cockroach.. and it is not those small one .. it is those big in size and flying one Eee... !!! First spotted is in my room *sob* and i was the victim.. :( while pulling the curtain, it ran past my hands.. and Ah!!!! i run out of the room.. and here come Heroin SIS.. haha... (my dear is actually quite scare of flying ones too..) keke.. With dad command.. Sis has to twist the cockroach head in order to make sure it is really dead.. and end up.. poor cockroach.. died without a full body.. but who ask it to come scare me.. *hump* Another one appear in the night in the kitchen.. also Sis deal with it.. but hor.. i truely think the cockroach know i am scare of it.. keep scaring me.. yesterday when i about to take rice for dad.. it appear on the kitchen floor where i just walk past.. OMG!!! Lucky Sis is at home to deal with it.. Now i have phobia to open my room window le.. got those feelign once i open all the cockroach will fly toward my face... argh... this is disgusting.. Reason why it keep appearing?? dunno too.. maybe rainy day no where to run.. and just downstair my house is the rubbish chute le.. haiz.. i hope.. they all go off soon.. i really very scare lah.. *sob sob*

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kekekekek.. I got it I got it... hahah i got my new NTUC-OCBC Debit card... kekekek hmm it is transparent de.. later go home take photo let you see...

Today very very free.. i simply keep surfing net.. haha.. actually coming to holiday we should be busy.. as shipment be rushing b4 holiday rush out.. but dunno why.. no shipment .. all done just waiting for documents from other agent.. i guess you all will not understand what i am saying bah.. then got time.. i went to others blog to browse.. saw one ger "PEI QI" blog.. very cute.. i think she design all by herself.. she even got put Chicken Little MTV .. hee hee i try to copy and put it inside my blog.. *sob* cannot.. dunno why.. think i need help from Dear..

Dear complaining i got time but dun go into his blog to updates.. is nothing to update ma.. Then he say the one we take bus then overselpt and miss our stop.. i say orr.. but also nothing much ma.. I know i know.. Dear dun have time so i should go update de.. but that is your blog too.. i want to hear from you too ma.. if you see ah.. that blog got mine update more than yours de loh... *hump*

So hungry now.. my lunch was just prawn noodle.. but not fillign at all.. it was like i did not ate anything at all.. now stomach is rumbling for food.. haha guess what?? "ock ock ock" Dear can you hear it ma? kekeke ya then i found out one thing.. i cannot drink coffee le.. not becos make me cannot sleep lah.. hmm dunno why.. this few times i drink coffee my hands will keep tremble and my heartbeat seem very fast.. very uncomfortable.. so maybe i have to refrain to take coffee.. BUT HOW AM I TO KEEP AWAKE WITHOUT COFFEE??? good question.. when i figure out then tell you all.. but b4 that.. Zzzzzzzzzz... *snore*... lol

Morning.. This morning i am too free le.. so went in to Canon website to walk around to see got what new Digital Cam... haha got one i like.. well have not check out the market price.. maybe might just do that this weekend bah.. guess which model caught my eye? haha it is the IXUS i zoom... hmm overall every cam look the same and has the almost the same function.. this series has 4 colours to chose.. hmm i think you all will think i will chose the red one.. i think purple will be for Janet.. but haha.. i prefer the black one.. hmm..very unbelieveable?? ok ok got to get back to work.. tataz..

Monday 19/12/2005

Know what occasion is this saturday?? It is Christmas Eve.. so where are you all going?? hmm me? *fliping schedule* haha not many ppl date me out lah.. only one.. Mr Lim Yong Sheng.. haha that day he be working bah.. think will meet quite late.. as he will go back his home.. take car then come fetch me.. hmm where are we going?? hmm not sure.. but will be somewhere able to take photo.. cos this is the first Christmas we are celebrating.. hee hee..

Yesterday went swimming.. haha like everything all told by Janet le.. hmm nothing much.. but i am quite happy.. seeing frenz and chat with them.. make me hmm.. not that pressure .. can push all my trouble to the back of my mind..

Gifts gifts gifts.. hey stop looking around.. you ya sayign you.. haha "where is my christmas gift??" haha nerd nerd going to get me one at KL.. hmm then what should i get for her in sg?? i think i got sth in mind le.. shh.. cannot tell now.. so any christmas wish?? yupz.. *nodding head* hmm maybe wish to have tian ji zhuo.. haha really craving must find time to go eat.. hmm still got what.. wish that my Dad will be better and i hope i can make him happy.. cos HAPPY IS THE CURE OF EVERYTHING, agree ma?? still got what.. Dear to be happy and soon i will not need to be Mrs Panda.. haha so Dear you have to rest more k.. i think that all bah.. nothing much i can wish for too.. anyway whatever you all buy i will like it de..

Last Night i got my first christmas gift.. haha of cos is from my Dear lah.. actually he dun intend to give me so early de.. then saturday my sis came to change some coins with me.. so i change le will put the money in Memory Box as spare cash for both of us.. then i told Dear about it.. then he got shock and ask " You put money in Memory Box?" "yupz!" then he got panick.. haha if he did not ask much i will not go see the Memory Box.. haha and i will not find my gifts.. haha.. hmm what gifts is it?? hmm still dun show you all yet.. wait till 24/12/05 i wear le i ask Dear to take down the photo for me.. oh come to think of it.. i guess i should add a item to my wishlist - Digital Camera.. haiz.. this one i think i have to save quite some time b4 i be able to fulfill.. hmm..

Ok i shall end it here le.. bye bye

I am so free today.. after not much document come in.. so make some time to update blog later still got to go dear dear blog to say something too.. huh say what? cannot tell you all lah.. sh.. dun ask..

Was chatting with nerd nerd now.. so boring.. i mean me.. then she should be busy as boss should be in office bah.. not like me.. haiz.. oh ya.. telling her i miss "tian ji zhuo" a lot.. eversince MJ use to bring me go.. no more chance i be able to eat.. now rarely touch.. cos dear dear dun eat those kind of thing ba.. oh yah do you all miss the "hao tan" hmm.. yummy yummy.. *saliva dripping, pass me a tissue pls* hahah

Yesterday was the second treatment of chemo.. i suddenly got this kind of thinking.. asking dad to do chemo is it a wrong.. although this time it is not that painful as the previous time.. but the after effect still the same.. he got fever and shivering with cold ... i am so helpless as i cannot do anything other than covering him with blanket and giving him medicine to eat.. if later the fever still not going to suside ,.. i guess have to take cab send him to A &E again le.. i know he hate to stay in hospital.. but for his health.. i have too..

hmm nothing much to write le bah.. very sleepy now.. as i did not really sleep well last night too.. keep waking up to check on dad.. the second time i wake up due to i dream of dad and his face was swollen .. haha scare me sia.. hmm hope everythign will be alright soon.. the third treatment.. i am already dun dare to think of it le..

Back back back.. Just saw my last update date .. HUH !!! 02/12/2005 that was so long ago.. guess i have been so busy till i dun have time to update.. ok some recap.. haha

Last week my colleague was on leave for the whole week so i have to suffer a whole week busy day.. but good thing is busy made my time past so fast.. everyday i dun have to count my time and ask myself "when will 5.30 come?" haha.. hmm..bad thing is Dad suffer inside hospital for more than a week.. and b4 he was able to discharge suddenly his ward got what VRE virus.. zzz... a delay of a day loh.. So last week i was so tired and sleepy.. almost everyday fall asleep on bus.. haha cos always will try to make a point to go visit dad after work.. at least there a fews hours he will not be boring ma..

hmm saturday there some unhappiness between me and Jinzhu.. dun wish to bring up again.. but i really hope the pc able to reboot and restart again.. i know my fault.. and i should not bring up the word.. if not there love i guess Jinzhu might just agree my suggest.. haiz.. not just you making me unhappy.. i do have make you unhappy too.. it take two hands to clap.. so actually when i am unhappy you are unhappy too.. but thaks dear.. i saw your blog and those HTML to enable to read chinese ... i know you made effort to do all those.. you are doing things quietly too.. not wanting any things in return...

This week is only now tuesday.. i am so tired still.. hope saturday i be able to sleep till later... then sunday then follow dad to market to "mai cai" haha cannot expect ba.. last sunday i went was in a lose what to buy.. but haha ok lah.. just dad complain i buy the prawn from that stall not good one.. then i know we use to eat so ex prawn and fish.. thanks you dad..

ok i shall stop here... got time i will still update.. but actually my life there nothing much to update le.. but i am contented with my life now.. everyone able to eat together on the table.. this is a wish i always wanted... but now is fulfill..

Why hasn't the RainBow appear ??

Sorry was busy over the last few days so did not have the mood and time to blog.. now while waiting to go off work.. maybe blog some to past time..

Thursday my dad went to start his first treatment .. I guess no one can understand my feeling.. just like i cannot help to unburden his pain.. We waited qutie a long time b4 our turn to do the Chemo.. well you will start to think chemo is an injection right? but it is actually not.. it is like a bag of liquid inserting into your body through those blood veins.. Dad was complaining pain when the chemo liquid goes into his body.. I feel like crying at the moment.. cos my heart feeling so pain when i see his expression.. I must say.. he is a man who can endure pain.. so when he start to complain.. it must be really very pain.. nightmare started after we got home.. do not know due to what cause.. dad started to develop fever.. and was shivering with cold.. to make him feel better.. i put on blanket, socks. and more clothes.. this does not help.. his temperture hit to 38.8 (this is when they start to wake me up and inform me dad fever gettign higher) I have to send him to A & E straight.. haiz.. and we spend half of our night in there waiting.. Now how is he le? Going on fine.. i just afraid his fever will occur anytime.. but he still unable to go back home today.. yesterday his fever came back and it is quite high.. so doctor advise to stay in hospital to observe.. hope that he be able to go back home tomolo bah..