Mood Swinging Up and Down

Well guess recently my mood been swinging very high up and suddenly down again.. Toro san should be tolerating very "xin ku" .. I dunno.. sometime i find it hard to believe in him although i know he will not lie to me.. but why every thing i have to ask so detail b4 i got the final real answer.. i dun understand.. and if so unhappy about me.. tell me straight in face dun slam my house door.. i feel you just feel dread to be with me.. to be with me.. i dunno.. am i thinking too much.. Fifth month coming.. all those bad feeling keep coming in.. i really dunno how to handle all this feeling... please make all this go away.. i hate it..