Worry.. ��� 蹇�

hmm yah recently problem seem to keep arising from home.. First sis moving back my home, then yesterday my dad went to see doctor due to his stomach pain.. and found out it might be something wrong with his liver.. it make me so uneasy and i almost broke down during work.. so worry for him as although he is in pain he still drive to my sis there to unload her clothes.. so heartpain when sis tell me that my dad even have diffculty to close the car door.. so worry he might half way in pain while driving.. it be very dangerous..

Yesterday was a tiring day too.. cook dinner for them and iron those clothes.. lucky me and my sis share half the burden.. i iron my dad, Toro san and my own.. then she iron her family one.. while ironing i suddenly pop out to Toro san.. "I hate my mum" must be shock bah.. i dunno why .. i use to love her and think she the best in the world.. but i dun understand was has got into her.. is money the evil thingy changes every human who owns it? Maybe to her yes.. i dunno.. but i got planning when she come back i going to declare war.. hate her from doing all those stupid things and make my dad suffer.. i just hope one whole family can be happily together .. why just i can't fulfill this dream.. why...

Look What You Have Done

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Mood Swinging Up and Down

Well guess recently my mood been swinging very high up and suddenly down again.. Toro san should be tolerating very "xin ku" .. I dunno.. sometime i find it hard to believe in him although i know he will not lie to me.. but why every thing i have to ask so detail b4 i got the final real answer.. i dun understand.. and if so unhappy about me.. tell me straight in face dun slam my house door.. i feel you just feel dread to be with me.. to be with me.. i dunno.. am i thinking too much.. Fifth month coming.. all those bad feeling keep coming in.. i really dunno how to handle all this feeling... please make all this go away.. i hate it..

I dunno.. i know i should not be thinking all this.. but i really have to ask.. where has the promise gone to? When you promise me you will quit.. was it just to stop me from nagging at you or you really want to? Looking at you everyday holding the stick on your hands make me more and more irritated.. i wish i could throw it away for you.. but i can't cos i know this is not what i should do.. i should be the one standing beside you helping you to quit.. but as days goes by you slowly change from asking me "Can I?" into a habit thingy .. the asking part have skip.. if you cannot change.. what should i do? Tolerate it or go along with you and smoke.. ?? WHy just i cannot fulfill this dream...why??

Life Without Blogger

Well this is kinda my personal feeling.. i should not post it in Toro san blog and so here i am again to make my comment here.. I got scold by Toro for not being a good gf.. I know he say those to spite me as i am not caring enough for him bah.. but i can say yes indeed i am not a good gf.,. how can i dun take note of all those littles things in his life..??

Although this morning he wrote me a message.. you are already part of my life.. do i really? i feel like slapping myself now.. if i do.. i will make your everyday life without any worry i will take care everything le.. i know how you feel when you see other gf is so good to them the envy and jealous is there...

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One more things.. this morning alot of thinking got into my mind.. when a guy say I love you or even I miss you.. how many times has him say this b4 to others gers too le.. even those surprise and gifts.. how many gers have receive those similar one... is it out of their truthful way to show their love of is their tactics.. to say love you and make you fall for them.. again and again...

Fourth Month Anniversary

Already told Toro san i will not post in here anymore.. but well.. Today is a important wor.. Our Fouth month anniversary we were together.. although before that we had already "sort of" together le.. haha why? cos stupid me wanted to chose a "good day" to be our date and haha wait for him to come back for TW mah.. that time was so worried he might look for a taiwan mei or i might find a clubber bf..haha which is not going to happen de.. cos i dun quite like to club.. but frankly.. when are we going to club momo? I want to explore there!!! hee hee *grin*

Hmm today Toro san be coming to my house again.. to stay over.. hope i be able to stay awake till very late as last night already very late sleep le.. den today maybe "Mr Zhuo" will come earlier to ask me go "play chess"... haha.. but i will try.. got to rush on vcd

Haiz.. this week going to be a no rest week.. i cannot sleep till very late.. saturday got to come back to office.. den guess in the noon Toro and me have to go amk to drive my sis stocks for sunday selling at her house again.. haha those who know and have to help dun forget to leave sunday for me hor.. help out hor.. hahah *smile*

Ok i shall end it here and continue to slack at work.. bye