21/02/05 A Happy Day (^_^)

Well i know to some of you.. today might not be a happy day as there is always lots of things happen around us every minute and hours... but for me, today is a happy day as Lex reply my message.. i always afriad to message him as i scare he might ignore or sya some hurting thingy to me.. so how did it start? ... actually all thanks to my dear frenz as they jio me go dbl O last friday when i saw his bike... (",) no more sad feeling when i saw his bike but surprise... and this morning b4 he change his msn pic to a date with a vampire 3 it was a photo of his new look after a new hair cut.. (*_^) well of cos i compliement about the hair style he have but sad to say he did not tell me that my new image is nice or bad...

So the conversation start when i ask did he went Dbl O last friday and he did reply nah.. well what we talk is personal so i rather dun type it in here... whatever it is i just wanna say about was we can finally talk like normal not afriad we might hurt each other le bah.. rest of my days was busy so did not message him anymore... (",)

If you going to ask me, do i still think of him that much.. i guess my answer is no.. why? well rather it is true that to forget a person is to get another person to forget the previous .. I alwaez thought this is not true as whenever i was with frenz i still think of him .. and madly... but recently i dun.. as i finally know what is the meaning for that sentance le.. not any person can help to forget the person in your heart.. no matter how that person treat you.. if he is not the right guy.. no matter what he do will only be appreciation to me... and as for me.. i got to know a person who has successfully made me put Lex out of my heart and could treat him just as a frenz and no more hurting... do you understand?

But to me.. i did a hurtful things to ah jie on saturday.. well... i told him not to wait... give up on me.. not much reason.. guess becos i know about things in his hp.. and i lie that i cannot forget Lex... ytd we were suppose to meet up for dinner after my hairdo.. but when i sms no reply.. when i call no answer.. he gave me an answer he was with client.. sunday wor.. how will you have client? just that you do not want to answer bah... and today i sms him i want to take back my things that left in his car.. no reply again.. haiz.. well really cannot be bgr relationship that means no more frenz too mah? why? haiz... i know i hurt him ... think i should disappear in his life at this moment... i still can remember the sad look he has when i tell him what is hiding in my heart for so long.. haiz.. i am sorry k?