26/02/2005 ( Netural Feeling )

Well was suppose to write a blog yesterday but was too busy with work so i did not have time to write le... well recently trying to know who read my blog.. as i really dunno i did not write it in friendster maybe only wlny frenz will know address... when i ask my frenz why read about my blog, they answer... welll want to know more about you...
So now let you all know more about me...

My Profile :

Name : Amy aka Baobao aka baobei aka xiao zhu
Age : Currently 22 this year getting older le.. so sad...
Address : haha know me one will know loh.. (*_^)

Likes : hmm a lot a lot... like food lah.. shopping.. erm... Doraemon..
still have erm.. sleep (this is my favourite)
Dislikes : one very important factor.. i hate people to lie to me.. so never dun do it to me k..

okay this is something special i am going to write... hmm

Current Memory I Have :

lots and lots of words said by the Prince keep running into my mind... i just cannot stop.. my memory stop at the time at PS with a "frenz" a special one... watching stars for the first time at there.. and i remember that day.. 14 Feb.. lol i got drunk after two glasses of Chivas and when i meet him.. he is angry about it... and the twos words you always say "take note" lots and lots of things keep flashing in my mind... i.. in fact dun wish to keep it out of memory ... as it is happiness i had and finally found someone who can really be my "kai xin guo" keke .......(^_^)

Next deep inside trying to slowly forget will be a white colour bike... and a place i always use to buy his favourite dessert for him... peanuts soup... it is him who intro me this dessert ... and everytime after his work b4 i meet him i will buy for him.. i dunno i guess this is the only way to make him happy too?

Well those deep inside memory might slowly fade and cover by news ones.. but i do cherish each and every memories i have with you all k..

hmm got to go le... actually now at my ah kor house... going to boat quay just grabing sometime to write something.. heehee dun anyhow think k... (",)

Special Dedicate To My Kor..

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23/02/05 ( Contain a bit of sadness)

Just finish writing a story.. haha it is a bit lousy .. well this is my first time to write this kind... i did not even draft out anything ust what come into my mind i type it in....

Princess.. is someone describe to me.. telling me i was like a princess to him.. Am I? (-_-)

I am not sure... kinda down today... why? I thought i am getting more happy as finally i can chat with "lex" today like a frenz.. he be going hong kong soon... at first i thought it was a trip... but now.. it is for work.. and it was not a day or two... it might be a long long period of time.. if i say i dun mind is bluff you.. totally 100% bluff.. cos my heart was feeling sad when i read it ... and i know i am in no position to say anything.. just able to say a sentance take care and all the best...

I know it is kinda stupid... but getting hard to control my feeling "him" someone who have finally have the ability to make me not to think of lex for two weeks? actually shorter.... i dunno what the right thing to do and i dunno what really i can do ... maybe just wait and see.. let time to decide what will happen next... maybe i should just find a bf ... den i will not think so much and i will know my bf will love me more than i love him.... (^_^) am i right? or i am wrong.....

What Book Would You Like To Be? (",)

IF YOU ARE TO BE A BOOK, WHAT KIND OF BOOK WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE?

Well... when you read the lyrics below you all should know bah.. what kind of book i would like to be.. A FAIRYTALE BOOK (^_*)

I hope to be a Princess in the book... and I will have a castle decorate with all my favourite character, Doraemon. ...

In the story, Princess will find her Prince by fate... how about when walking down the forest when they saw each other.. (*_^)

Princess and Prince get to know each other more and soon they were sticking with each other like erm... "bubble gum" ( sorry ah my english poor when i think of a better word will change k?) but one day Prince suddenly disappear from Princess life.. Those days without Prince at her side was miserable ... Princess began to go all those places where Prince and Her have went before... Princess dun understand why Prince has to disappear cos Princess never actually wanted anything from Prince.. just only have one wish... to just maintain and cherish what she have now and that all... Princess dun even dare to ask Prince to be with her.. cos she herself is not sure whether she be able to keep that promise to Prince..

Talk till here.. will start thinking why not able to keep promise... Princess is scared.. scared to make commitment and afriad one day when she put her whole heart with Prince, prince will leave her.... as what it is happening now...

Until one day, Prince appear just as suddenly how he disappear in front of Princess.. without asking much... she just talk and treat Prince as her frenz. actually Princess was just trying to control all her feeling and not showing all her misses she has for him...

The appearance of Prince at least cure some of Princess misses.. she do not dare to ask much from him.. she know there is reason for him to leave...

erm.. well think i will stop here for this story.. it might or might not be continue as.. i dun know the answer too.. maybe this time Prince might stay with Princess forever or he might just disappear again..(-_-) but for the ending stay tune loh... (*_^)

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Hmm.. Finally Everything Clear (*_^)

erm.. first of all.. haiz.. where should i start leh.. erm.. just started to think.. recently know quite a lot of ppl who's horoscope is Gemini wor.. so cute... last time hardly able to know a Gemini but dunno.. maybe this "Rooster" year is "wang-ing" Gemini bah...

Okay what is clear about leh? well finally ah jie sms me.. telling me he feels sorry and that why now we turn out this way le.. maybe it is a good thing bah.. he can concentrate on the others... and no need to lie to me le.. to tell the truth if i say i dun mind got 30 % i might be lying, 70 % it is true.. why ?

30% of i lie about i dun mind cos who in this world can accept their frenz to lie and can treat nothing has happen.. somemore this secret is Me myself find out.. so how.. but haiz.. i also dunno
70% of it is true as what i find out is still consider early ... so the hurt is still not that bad... if at the moment i really accept him le and he lie i guess i make a hell out of it.. but now as frenz i can forgive and forget.. that is why the difference my ex bf always complain about me.. i treat frenz better.. maybe becos bf i have more request hope they be better too... (",)

can't help to think... maybe.. today the sms from him might include a new lie too? you know those feeling? when you start to have the first lie release it will made ppl think what you have said after that might be a second or third lie.. i dunno lah.. maybe i am thinking too much...

haiz.. haiz.. haiz... i thought a new hairstyle might be a change for me.. maybe lifestyle should change. haha well i have a pact with Yong Sheng... if he is to quit smoking , i stop clubbing too.. well it should be easy for me too right?? I hope so .. maybe b4 i quit i might go down Devils more often.. heard from Lex he always go there nowadays when he has time.. heehee so you should know what i am thinking too lah huh?

21/02/05 A Happy Day (^_^)

Well i know to some of you.. today might not be a happy day as there is always lots of things happen around us every minute and hours... but for me, today is a happy day as Lex reply my message.. i always afriad to message him as i scare he might ignore or sya some hurting thingy to me.. so how did it start? ... actually all thanks to my dear frenz as they jio me go dbl O last friday when i saw his bike... (",) no more sad feeling when i saw his bike but surprise... and this morning b4 he change his msn pic to a date with a vampire 3 it was a photo of his new look after a new hair cut.. (*_^) well of cos i compliement about the hair style he have but sad to say he did not tell me that my new image is nice or bad...

So the conversation start when i ask did he went Dbl O last friday and he did reply nah.. well what we talk is personal so i rather dun type it in here... whatever it is i just wanna say about was we can finally talk like normal not afriad we might hurt each other le bah.. rest of my days was busy so did not message him anymore... (",)

If you going to ask me, do i still think of him that much.. i guess my answer is no.. why? well rather it is true that to forget a person is to get another person to forget the previous .. I alwaez thought this is not true as whenever i was with frenz i still think of him .. and madly... but recently i dun.. as i finally know what is the meaning for that sentance le.. not any person can help to forget the person in your heart.. no matter how that person treat you.. if he is not the right guy.. no matter what he do will only be appreciation to me... and as for me.. i got to know a person who has successfully made me put Lex out of my heart and could treat him just as a frenz and no more hurting... do you understand?

But to me.. i did a hurtful things to ah jie on saturday.. well... i told him not to wait... give up on me.. not much reason.. guess becos i know about things in his hp.. and i lie that i cannot forget Lex... ytd we were suppose to meet up for dinner after my hairdo.. but when i sms no reply.. when i call no answer.. he gave me an answer he was with client.. sunday wor.. how will you have client? just that you do not want to answer bah... and today i sms him i want to take back my things that left in his car.. no reply again.. haiz.. well really cannot be bgr relationship that means no more frenz too mah? why? haiz... i know i hurt him ... think i should disappear in his life at this moment... i still can remember the sad look he has when i tell him what is hiding in my heart for so long.. haiz.. i am sorry k?

Yes!!!

Finally exam has ended... new nightmare will start in May 2005 well haiz.. took a lot of effort to really study to score.. dunno why.. last time in school dun work hard now den half work half study den so hardworking... so it is like kinda funny...

Sorry to all my frenz around me... sorry i have been giving attitude to you all.. and thanks that you all still by my side even i treated you all like this... erm.. kinda "fan" with problem recently but well everything has been solve... regards of problem... i dunno should i write it out here... well better kept it inside ...

Devils tonight.. got a feeling i will enjoy it a lot.. why? dun tell you..(^_*)

Mixed Feelings

Not really in good mood now... want to let it out but dunno how... i dunno what is real and fake.. what i see now is it the truth? i dunno ... after that movie got a time i look forward for love.. guess love is something that is too much for me... not a thing i can have... i dunno what to write le.. i am just waiting for reply.. a reply to know the truth...

Horoscope

Gemini with Gemini

With another Gemini, there is action. You begin projects. You renovate and revise; you modernize. The relationship is stimulating. Ideas are transformed into action. With another Gemini, there are inventions, pioneering projects. Impulse rules and the pace are quick.
Gemini women are most appreciative of gifts and surprises. Flowers, followed by a theater party, will help her to realize your worth. Always remember, she doesn't want to be tied down or restricted.

Gemini women can also exhibit a disturbing habit: they laugh at the wrong times. A romantic moment you wish to say or do something momentous and Gemini is laughing. Laugh with her! Here's a warning: when you get used to them, Gemini women can become indispensable. But if you let them know it, you could be in for trouble!

Loosen the reins: the less you appear dependent, the more you will be depended upon. She has a great sense of humor for this, you can forgive much. It is a great and wonderful quality. With her, you can be exasperated: your nerves will tingle, sometimes with joy - at other times, simply because you're becoming an emotional and physical wreck! But listen: she can be worth it!
The Gemini man barks loud, but his bite is a mere nibble when it comes to chasing other women. Remember this: don't try to inhibit him through jealousy. If you do, this, he is apt to rebel - then the bite equals the bark. You can lose him through possessiveness. Give him plenty of room and he will come home to make a home, to make you happy.

He is versatile, alert, charming and blessed with loads of energy. No matter what the weather, he is willing to go out, to be on the move, to experiment, to satisfy his curiosity- He may tire you, but complaining has an adverse effect. He may agree you have a right, at times, to be downcast. But, in reality, he expects you to keep your coin up, to keep smiling. Hold on to him - but be subtle about it!

A Moment To Remember

A Moment To Remember

hmm.. this is actually a title of a movie i watch with Jasper on saturday... did not expect it to be so touching... got to know this movie when i was watching Flight of the Phoneix at Cathay... well when it was just playing the trailer it got me so touch le.. almost feel like crying..

Above will be the photo of the movie... well thinking of it make me feel like crying again.. it is really a movie not to be miss.. i guess what it touches me most is the way how they get together and fallen in love and not forgetting couples do quarrel too but in the end got patch up and finally get married...

So sad that the actress got the dieases and the pain to forget things and people around her... her close one ... i broke down crying when she smile at her husband but calling out her ex boyfriend name... and say I LOVE YOU... i agree with what her husband thinking.. who she really want to say out the I LOVE YOU too...?? well not to be doubt it is really for her husband.. who she love the most... haiz... i guess i might buy this vcd back when it is out and watch it when i am sad... a reason for me to cry out and a reason for me to remind myself there is actually true love in this world where tong hua bu zai shi tong hua... (",)

Finally back To Work.. (Blue Roses Garden (^_^) )

Good Morning Everyone.. (*_^) First of all i wanna say Happy New Year Everyone!!! well so how your new year cum valentine day going on?

Hmm let me start with my CNY bah... well normal ongoing things for first few days.. go relative house den what i was looking forward is go Jasper home play mahjong.. haha why? cos we say so many times to gather around play mahjong in the end we always did not manage to "pa".. haiz... lol... hmm i got quite good luck playing with them... and i do enjoy it.. just kinda sad in the end we did not get to go eat seafood cos not enough car and not much ppl going too... thought we say already after mahjong go eat seafood...in the end respond is not good.. sad....

I got quite "fan" recently... wondering do human get close to you becos of a purpose... and behind it is there another sercet i dunno about it? I am afriad i might got it wrong by thinking the way i am thinking but what if i am right? People could be so good to you in front of you but at your back they might back stab do something not good behind your back.. I have began more and more not to trust people and relationship le... I dunno when they tell me the truth.. when they say they love me do they really mean it or was just trying to get something out from me...

well.. lets not talk about this le.. how about valentine day?
How did i spend it? haha stay home waiting for my flower to be deliver to my home.. wahahah.. got two bouquet of blue roses from two different person.. well i shall not say who le lah.. actually i like the bouquet send by my admirer one.. hmm nicer roses and the packing more neater... i broke my promise (-_-) sob sob.. haha actually nothing much it is just that i say i will not be going out to celebrate in the end i still go out... just too boring at home after struggling with my QM study.. kinda panick le.. too long no touch QM i thought i can still get distinction but looking the way how i was doing guess i get pass i should be happy le.. but dun worried i will work hard try my best till the very end... guess tomolo i might be taking leave to study le... thu exam... dunno will i have those confident when i am doing FFL one or not.. anyway wish me luck... oops.. back to the topic... haha so in the end i ask Thomas out... we went to taka have dinner den went to have a drink at boat quay b4 i meet someone else... well i should not say who cos it has not been mention in here yet... not the right time to intro him to you all... okay le.. guess this be all for this topic Blue Roses Garden... later i will post two more bah...

CNY ThIs WeeK (*_^)

well it has been a long time i have not write my blog already.. Got miss me ma? whahaha.. hmm well this week will be CNY le company shutdown for a week.. kinda able to rest at home.. well at least is something i hope i be able to rest... not feeling well again.. been coughing and today my right eyes was infect by germ bah.. so i got to wear spec.. so nerdy.. but i got a lot of comment for wearing specs.. some say i look young some say i look more mature.. maybe due to hair.. well finally made my decision about my new coming hairstyle... will go for rebond and have a new hair cut of cos will not cut it short.. just trim and do some style.. new style..

Last weekend did not go out to DB or CB.. lots of thing happen.. i did not have time to write on friday.. but well it is finally solve bah.. things will get back to the same bah.. right? well really knida hurt and i am so scare i might burst out when i cannot hold anymore.. trying to cheer everyone around me but sad to say i am not in good mood too so hard to make other happy when i am not...

Yesterday i saw my first love.. i guess he did not saw me bah.. as i was behing my kor.. massging him when i heard his voice.. so familiar and i look up and saw him.. never know after so many years i can still recongise him.. but i like this feeling.. the feeling of heart beat when you see your love one.. it has been so long i have not have this feeling le..

tomolo be working half day yeh.. no need do shipment and so wahahah just filing and so it be quite a free day tomolo... (*_^)

okay lah going back le.. tata

Last Week of January... 2005

Hmm last weekend did not have much interesting happen... finally able to go Devils again... so fun.. but my dancing.. got to improve bah.. kor always say my dancing suck..haiz...

Bad eric.. so bad... made me drop my tears in front of him.. haiz.. dun wanna talk about it le... anyway thanks for your testi wor.. (^_^)

hmm last night got a very bad dream.. got woke up by the dream.. so scary.. but now i cannot recall much about what i have dream vivdly only know i was panting hardly when i wake up ...

He finally took some new pic.. i went into his friendster see.. well.. saw one of his pic taken last year during his bdae... the caption put the onli one.. well what can i say... feel a bit crack inside my heart... but at least let me pull back my feeling for him.. i was thinking alot recently.. about him ... i thought i could give a try to ask.. maybe things can go back to the past.. but guess... no need leh bah..

Am i treating ppl the wrong way... ??? giving them wrong message.. i guess i got to change bah.. the way how i talk, how i behave... this one got to learn from nerd nerd leh.. why she dun have this problem i have.. hmm... *thinking*

okay lah.. going to go for my lunch soon.. so shall end it here.. (*_*) dun worry... i will stay happy alwaez...