So sad

Haiz... today i am early to write a blog.. maybe i cannot tolerate anymore bah... I cry again yesterday night.. (T.T) well i think i saw "him" riding his bike pass me..and sadly there is a gal behind.... haiz.. i hope i see wrongly but well i cannot ask him.. i can only think on my own ... was it him... ??? or was it not?? I think i will not have the answer but it is just kinda heartbreaking... my heart was in pain since last night.. *sob sob* those tears just fall when i look at the white helmet thinking of all the past i have with "him".. The first meeting is at J8 but he had wait for me at the ESSO station just outside my office.. and the most comical thing is i brought an umbrella with me (xiao huang) keke and till the later part when i am with him den i know he was attracted to me becos of my xiao huang..

Today my condition is getting worse.. although now doctor say it is not appendix.. i feel the pain all over my body since this morning.. and my appetite seem getting worse.. no feeling to eat.. in fact after forcing myself finish that bowl of noodle i feel like throwing out back to the bowl... Can a better doctor tell me what is happening to me??

Very tired.. tired to have so many burden on me.. tired to worry for my frenz which in the end they dun even listen to my advice.. i hope she will not chose the wrong way... well what can i say much.. i am a flirt in the past.. what stand can i talk about love? I have only been sad once how would i know about how sad a guy could be when his loved one broke off with him.. I try to stand in the guys position to think for my frenz.. but i find no reason i could persuade myself to believe my frenz decision is right.. (just becos scare to hurt the other party) haha.. well ..........

Okay i shall stop here.. i hope tomolo will be a better day and mood and i will try to write down all about the time i have spend with "him" cya...