It is still so pain to me...

Well I have been asking myself recently.. is physical pain more painful than heart pain?

Haha i did not have the answer till now.. although i feel physical pain more painful now.. whenever i passby his house i just cannot stop myself from turning to look there.. the first time i saw his bike.. second time saw him in front of his com... even though i know i cannot talk to even or even to tell him i was admitted to hospital and wanted so much he could visit me... but seeing him from far made me at least happy to know he is alright...

I got ask by my frenz yesterday night.. do I still love him? I dun have an answer.. Do I? I feel sad everytime i think of him.. I wish those thing did not happen and my mind did not run wild last time... and all these unhappiness will not happen and i be still happily be with him... i find he is the best.. no one can be compare with him.. (how i wish he know) i never compare him with others.. i just feel he is the best...

Time flies past so fast... this coming weekend be going Phuket.. but haiz.. guess the trip with my company got to cancel.. still so unsure my condition is appendix or it is just a normal stomach upset.. but everday i will have pain.. and my face seem to turn pale when i am in pain... (told by my frenz) I guess my planning to tolerate the pain till back from the trip going to be waste... haiz.. so scare of operation.. so scare i might not able to see him again... haha i think i am worrying too much .. just a small op mah hor..

Okay lah, i should stop here to prepare to go home.. cya tomolo (*_*)