Over the weekend I have been going thru a stressful week.. I really thought that something serious within my body that I might not live long.. but it seem.. I might have been thinking too much.. after poping some pills regularly this few days, my condition seem to be better now..

*hoping that it will not come back again*

But at that moment of time when I really thought I am going to go thru the same things as my dad.. the first thought that flash into my mind is .. I wanna a divorce with Dear.. I dun wanna drag him along with my suffering cos I know the pain to see the love one to leave.. and before that .. you get to see your love one slowly losing its health and you know you dun have much time to be with him/her..
I would rather to suffer alone.. without looking the painfulness in my family members eyes and expression.. cos I know.. they will be keeping it inside until very hard.. (or maybe.. they will not be ffeeling a thing, which in fact hoping me to die)

Anyway.. I really draft out something that hopefully I got enough to let my mom go thru her old age in comfort.. and I can leave with peace.. and not dragging Dear.. let him free and get a better ger into his life..

Cos I know.. I am not a good wife, not a good gf.. can only consider a good friends.. cos.. I always making him angry..
谢谢你忍耐我的任性， 可是我就是喜欢你宠我的样子