Took the clothes from Janet sis yesterday.. and saw baby Iris.. haha as cute as ever.. but did not get to hug hug her.. cos.. yesterday i waited for the 3 of them for an hour at her sis bus stop.. from 7pm wait till 8pm.. it has been a long time since i waited this way.. and so we reach her blk very late le.. I know dear very tired and our time of sleep is 11 pm somemore dear got his unfinish work has to be done back home so have to rush.. so without waiting for nerd they all we went home at 9pm.. lucky that place not hard to wait for cab and within a few minutes we got home le.. had a very full dinner.. i almost vomit my fish all out.. haha and rest a while then i doze off without dear.. ha ha

Oh talk back about the clothes.. i took the two i have request to buy from her sis.. but went back to try the pink on .. oh no.. the top if i squeeze my two hand together there will be a very big gap in the front SXXX.. now how? i buy le yet cannot wear.. wanted to flare and fight for my right but given up.. i know i got no right to. So when i find that my voice a bit high i cool down and talk to him nicely.. but i am sad.. real sad.. Dear once shop with me when U2 and G2000 having sale.. instead of i am the one buying lots of clothes ended up is him who is able to buy 2 shirts and me NOTHING... he said am i too demanding?? How i wish i could say YES you are.. but instead i console him.. i know he is for my good.. so no need to mind so much.. but when he say this dun he ever think to change instead just talk and do nothing?? I can only choose those high cut , turtle neck clothes.. does he know i am sick and tired to wear those in my warerobe? T-shirt, turtle neck.. what there special i have?? This is not me.. i dun like to wear those everytime , i used to still able to wear spagetti until he keep nagging and i give in to wear those that he like.. but i grew tired of giving in le..

This morning.. I wear a turtle neck with a flappy brown skirt.. i find it dun match.. ugly.. sucks.. but when i ask dear he just say ok ah.. dun look bad.. (in my mind i actually feel.. of cos.. as long as those dun look nice on me de clothes you will find it nice..) why make me so ugly?? I began to hate this me le.. i feel myself not pretty anymore.. unable to dress pretty.. i think this is a dread thing for a woman to feel bah.. i got no more mei li.. what should i do?? to change him or to change me??

飞机已离开机场你选择了前往你的方向不再迷惘忘了我们爱的过往忘了我给你的伤学会坚强从前的我不懂你牺牲多大为我失去朋友不讲还放弃了所有梦想觉得没怎样不会将心比心去想让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你我会仔细的聆听你对我说的一言一语我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心对你好好的去珍惜请你相信我的心还是爱你我想再重来一次回到过去弥补你的伤没那种事怎么做才能够停止后悔竟伤你如此不再放肆为何总到失去才懂的难过当你在我身边的时候总是为我默默守候都是为我的错错过这难得的拥有就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你我会仔细的聆听你对我说的一言一语我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心对你好好的去珍惜请你相信我的心还是爱你

This is a song.. i find it.. it suit my feeling now.. sorry to have rant so much out in here.. but i be fine after ranting out.. so not to worry dear..我还是爱你的