Second time posting this le.. at first wanted to try using chinese but it seem to have problem again.. haiz.. a blue day.. early morning i have made my bf angry.. it was partly becos of my dreams.. i t make me think of what i am really thinking and face what the true reality is.. are we really suit each other?? The thing he dun like is those thing i always do .. the thing i wish to do he always oppose.. but on the other way.. he is always there for me.. he really love me.. so what? how to decide?? I dun wanna break.. he my best bf i could have .. who love me most... why why.. actually I am like the Prince.. he is slowly turning me into what he wish and wanted gf.. I wear t shirt.. cover up those places where i need to and learn to spot " busy eye".. but when i ask others.. will their bf do that.. i am envy .. yes very envy.. cos they can wear whatever they like.. buy whatever they want , go where ever they want without scaring their bf angry.. this is my thinking.. but whenever i say out.. my bf will shoot me with lot of things and past that i have did and done..

YES I AM A BITCH THAT ALMOST BROKE UP WITH THIS PRECIOUS BF BECAUSE OF A BASTARD... I am sorry for that hurting but nothing can do to help.. i know.. nothing...

This matters make me think all the time.. breaking up in the first place will heal the wound and we will never see each other again.. but i dun wish to let go from the start... it jus tmy foolish move make me lose him...

My last words:
I wish to hide in a world where no one can find me now.. please dun come find me or call me.. i dun wish to talk about anything.. hope work can let me forget all this.. I wanna live in my own world.. alone......