*phew* finally got time to blog something down today le.. haha nerd nerd guess she got noting to write.. i just went into her blog nothing.. the same old post.. haha this time i am more hard working.. yesterday went home change and walk to Hougang Point to shop around for things that my dad like to eat.. (cos my sis claim that she does not know where to buy.. blah blah blah and her market very limited) so how about me? I made an effort to walk to HG to buy to shop.. and even fork up money for this.. haiz i dunno.. maybe those ppl in the market have made her clever or just simply listen to them.. and they mayb e just tell her not to care for this family since she has already been married off..

Well so i reach HG about 7pm.. call dear.. was wondering why he has not call me if he has off work.. IN THE END!!! he is still in office.. and say what we meet to go back together.. endded up.. i go buy those things and bought food for both of us and my fav OCK.. haha and then slowly walk home.. haiz those can food is so heavy how i wish dear is there.. but to think back.. those thing can make me train up too.. like that i will not like so lazy le.. haha and lack of excersie .. haha

So what the occasion?? Tomolo is Dad bdae.. (chinese one) People say the dead person first bdae have to celebrate and buy a cake and cook those dishes he like to eat.. but i really very angy with my sis.. does she really know what dad like or dun or just for her convience?? Those dishes she propose is like.. HUh i never know dad like to eat those,,, just too bad my mom not at home and i have to work.. so tomolo only my sis .. my i try to do my part by buying cake and all those.. kinda sad.. this time we can no longer celebrate his bdae.. or he be 61 this year le..

Well.. today nothing much but morning was busy like hell as dec shipment all coming in on the first.. so have to make payment and advice to consignee asap.. Dear read about my blog and i guess my tag.. he left a message not intending to make me unhappy.. i know.. and i understand.. you just protecting me.. :) i am sorry maybe i had spoilt your day again... haiz.. why why why..

羽毛
多么沮丧 成人世界并不像童话
王子公主很少喜剧收场
不是只要够勇敢够善良
就会有仙女帮忙实现愿望

慢慢懂了 其实失恋是一种力量
因为孤独让人可以回想
是在哪边该下车却没下
才到了一个不想到的地方

有时候爱是粉红的羽毛
谁捧着都有微笑的眼角
才看他在手心沉沉的睡着
一起风 又醒了 那么轻飘飘的走掉

我觉得我是雪白的羽毛
向往着超越自己的渺小
成为寂寞城堡关不了
能带给人幸福的青鸟

Every night when i am on my way back i will keep replaying this song to myself.. was learning the song.. hope to sing it one day.. but it brings back lots of memory which there is no link to this song de.. maybe it just reflect life bah.. ^_^

Ok some updates of what happen recently since nerd nerd complain i did not.. at least she make a point every week once.. haha

erm.. let me think.. Everyday .. some time in a few mins me and dear might have a small tiff.. but it will be gone soon after we both kept quiet and cool down our feeling.. saw nerd blog on the one she cannot find her bf when she wake up.. (well that one very caring of her bf to have thought of she might be hungry.. if it is my dear.. haha i think he will wait till i wake up ask me what i want to eat.. he will not buy on his own.. COS I AM CHOOSY .. i know *bleh*)

24/11/06

Dear got quite panic for me .. erm i think 30 mins bah.. haha cos i was working OT and as i was on medication.. and it always make me feel sleepy and tired after eating those.. so board the bus back at about 6.15pm bah.. then i got talk a while with dear while i was on the bus and drag till paya lebar then i start to fall asleep.. and OMG.. dear try calling me after an hour as that was the normal time i will reach home and call him.. but he could not find me.. that day sis not at home no one at home he call home no answer , call my hp alot of times yet i did not answer.. then finally i answer after i felt the vibration.. Can you all imagine!!! I over slept 4-5 stops.. i saw the time 7.45pm.. the sky so dark le and the place i drop off so ulu.. dun dare to tell dear if not sure kill me.. but haiz i still got scolded.. once i pick the phone from dear he start to scold me.. I know he is expressing his panic and worried..somemore i am sick but sob.. really feel like crying that time.. cos overslept already very "cham" as i have to walk across to take bus back again.. and so dark.. then dear just keep scold scold scold.. in the end i cannot take it.. i shouted back .. cos i cannot cry if not the one beside me (a indian guy) later think i can bully pull me to bushes how?? haha am i thinking too much? but not long after i finally got home safely lah...

26/11/06

Haiz.. there something that i at first cannot put inside here de.. but ahha dear know about it le.. have to be truthful to him ma.. today TW chairman arriving to SIN so we have arrange a welcome dinner for him at Carlton hotel.. the food there actually so-so bah.. maybei did not eat too much too.. not feeling that well.. but that day i got "yan yu wor" haha while waiting for train from dobby ghuat to city hall (where i meet my colleague to walk over there) there a guy (quite handsome lah.. haha no lah my dear better) walk over and ask me for direction how to walk to NEL to Vivo city.. then he look like a foregin ma.. so help loh.. direct him using those sign board to get to NEL loh.. but tot it end there.. in the end he walk back and ask.. can i have a pic with you.. then i ask with you?? he say ya.. and grab a passerby to help to take for us.. haha.. so this is just a occasion "yan yu" but like that also wrong.. dear say i should not take with him .. should reject him.. Zzzzzzzz really dun understand.. and so in the end we had a small tiff.. and have to promise him not to do that again.. haiz.. like i am a child right??

28/11/06

My boss Carine went on holiday.. early morning i was busy like siao.. then noon time i suggest to buy back eat so bringing my ipod cos i know dear be no time to talk to me so i listen song and walk to buy back alone for 3 pax.. then dear call the wrong time.. haiz my hand was full.. reject his call he call again.. always have this habit.. sian.. then have to tell him i got no hand to talk and hang up.. but in a harsh tone.. after i reach office.. i call him again and said sorry.. i know i am in the wrong.. and everything back to normal loh.. but i still a bit PMS .. dunno why.. too stress bah.. haha..

From Janet i understand a thing.. when you really love a person you really willing to change for him.. just like her now changing her temper for her bf.. ya it is true lah.. some time she is just too unreasonable.. wahaha but only to bf not me... waahahah *oops* love your bf more.. he is good catch.. as for me.. I change a lot too.. ah kor always say.. you are not the same old Amy le.. i turn to not to wear spagetti, no low cut tops, seldom wear mini skirts and just a plain me without any makeup or dolling myself le.. dear just dun like and i dun understand why.. haha and no more call from guys.. and meeting them.. those ban list.. other than those ban list i think there more he will not let me meet.. he just dun let me meet others than him.. maybe that is why i feel lonely inside my heart?? or do i not?? with dear.. all this feeling i dun have .. without him.. i felt lonely.. i try yesterday.. drop at market walk to a coffeeshop buy his hor fun (which is better than downstair de) and buy my fav bbq chix wings.. then walk back home to coffeeshop again to tapao my dinner.. haha craving for their bitter gourd.. haha thruout.. i think a lot.. almost feeling like crying.. think of dad, my condition , my family, me and dear.. loneiness made you think alot.. alot.. So what should i do if dear go TW for reservice?? 2 weeks leh.. i will play like siao or stay home be good and cry and lick on my own scar.. or... will i still be there???

Finally!!! I am going to finish off my course of my medicine today.. you will not understand how much trouble and hate when come to medicine.. hard to swallow is one thing.. haiz.. poor dad began to feel how he felt..

But good thing is i am finishing today.. no more.. hehe

Suddenly a remind of what i heard from those auntie when i was attending a baby fullmoon .. a couple have to quarrel sometime to add on some spice into the relationship.. never keep the unhappiness inside the heart cos that will affect the marriage.. so dear.. the unhappiness which we always dun mention.. have you totally kick it out?? i guess not.. that is a scar a hurt.. it cannot be forget.. how about me?

Second time posting this le.. at first wanted to try using chinese but it seem to have problem again.. haiz.. a blue day.. early morning i have made my bf angry.. it was partly becos of my dreams.. i t make me think of what i am really thinking and face what the true reality is.. are we really suit each other?? The thing he dun like is those thing i always do .. the thing i wish to do he always oppose.. but on the other way.. he is always there for me.. he really love me.. so what? how to decide?? I dun wanna break.. he my best bf i could have .. who love me most... why why.. actually I am like the Prince.. he is slowly turning me into what he wish and wanted gf.. I wear t shirt.. cover up those places where i need to and learn to spot " busy eye".. but when i ask others.. will their bf do that.. i am envy .. yes very envy.. cos they can wear whatever they like.. buy whatever they want , go where ever they want without scaring their bf angry.. this is my thinking.. but whenever i say out.. my bf will shoot me with lot of things and past that i have did and done..

YES I AM A BITCH THAT ALMOST BROKE UP WITH THIS PRECIOUS BF BECAUSE OF A BASTARD... I am sorry for that hurting but nothing can do to help.. i know.. nothing...

This matters make me think all the time.. breaking up in the first place will heal the wound and we will never see each other again.. but i dun wish to let go from the start... it jus tmy foolish move make me lose him...

My last words:
I wish to hide in a world where no one can find me now.. please dun come find me or call me.. i dun wish to talk about anything.. hope work can let me forget all this.. I wanna live in my own world.. alone......

Hey Guy... I am back.. it has been so long i have not blog in here.. not that i have another blog or what.. haiz old problem came back again.. got Dear very angry with the doctor but very touch of him to stay with me and try to company me whenever he can.. I know it is tired to travel here and there .. cos i have been thru this experience too.. that is why i request to go back home.. just hoping the pain will totally go off.. if not.. two weeks later i guess i am going back to see the cocky doctor again.. overall now i am fine.. so please dun treat me as a sick person.. and i wanna thank my colleague to took some time to come visit me.. and sorry for them to have to be trouble about what to buy for me.. hahha as i dun eat sweet and fruits they have a hard time to choose the gift.. haha but i got a basket of flowers and a big can of milo , horlick, 2 can of condense milk and a big tin of biscuits.. hahah

ok lah.. that is all i wanna update bah..

Yesterday Nov 1 is our anniversary and also it is my colleague Charmaine Bdae.. haha very conincidence.. she is also 23 this year.. as usual our office practice to celebrate colleagues and this time with a ice cream cake oreo favour.. but the biscuits at the side suck.. "lose wind " le haha





Four gers.. hehe guess who is the oldest?? from top left Chuiyen, YT , Charmaine & me.. lack of one person.. my "lao da" haha my supervisor as she is sick yesterday so did not came.. and guess who took the photos for us.. SK (our boss) haha his hand shake while taking so it is abit blur..

一年半的 甜蜜回忆

好不容易从刚开始的争吵 到我们现在的彼此的相知相惜， 我终于可以宣怖我们以今一年半了 哈哈 !!!

My first time to write in chinese .. i can say it is a failure.. cos i can't use it as i like.. and having problem with it.. haiz.. so in the end i chose to write in english.. a langauge everyone will know what the hell i am writing about..

Firstly .. i have to say.. sorry dear i might have throw quite a few trantrum on you recently.. please dun blame me.. blame it on Ms Xiao Hong.. i am very PMS.. please dun come and provoke me..

Secondly Do you know what the date today?? Although we have compromise to celebrate our anniversary when we had our dinner at Tao's Rest. but i feel on the actual day i should say... Dear I love you very much..

haha *i can see alot of ppl dropping lots of goosebump le* haha

Thirdly I know you have been trying hard on your work.. has been very stress.. if i have not show enough care and concern .. please tell me.. but i have to say.. take care of your body too.. always dun eat breakfast and lunch.. you are going to ruin your body.. i am just caring for you too.. please dun always push my care aside.. it feel hurts.. and after that dun blame me for not caring for you enough.. haha.. *pushing fault again*

Lastly.. WHERE SHALL WE GO TODAY??? haha i guess we are unable to go out as your work time is getting longer and longer le.. always get home after 8pm.. just hope you dun overwork... i miss you when you are not with me.. but i know you are working for our future.. Love you..