It has been a few months since Dad has left us.. I did not keep track for how long.. but from time to time my mind just flash him and was thinking how is he.. has been thinking do he hate me or does he regret of what he had did.. to trust me.. a 23 years old ger to handle everything for him and for this family.. thinking of him make me cry.. i miss him dearly and really hope there is a thing call "Time machine" for me to tune back to the past.. to shower him more care and love..



Actually always we read about emails asking us to treasure those people around you.. and we will actually say aiya what for.. there is still time.. i dunno .. thing make be good today and it will suddenly change the next day.. this photo is his last birthday .. 59 years 2005.. can see he had gone so thin after the chemo.. i am sorry dad.. i fail to help you.. to make you feel better.. whatever i am doing now does not help you anymore.. i am sorry..