Just finish doing my work.. and reading some blogs.. my usual one.. hmm yah lots of mix feeling.. kaoz.. everyone seem to wrote down what they have done on 2005 instead like me.. do nothing.. now write seem a bit too late..haha so no point huh?

A fresh new year.. 2006 , in chinese calendar it will be the DOG year.. my dad year.. haha 12+12+12+12+12=60 years old.. Dad is about to pass his fifth Dog year... 60 is not long enough yet.. i hope he can have another 12 more years to have another Doggie Year.. Nothing much actually.. Dad was admit into NUH again on sunday.. He has a severe pain in his stomach and was unable to move himself at all.. I find myself useless why can't i be more attentive more concern when he first inform me about his pain.. If anything gonna happen to him.. i will never forgive myself..

Got home yesterday morning at 7+ after everythign settle down for dad.. went to sleep till 12+ then prepare myself again to visit dad.. He seem better.. but just some pain still.. and imagine what medi did they give.. morphine.. yet it is still not killing much of the pain.. went down with dear to walk walk.. we talk about dad.. i know i understand he want me to face the fact.. but i dun want.. the moment when he say spend more time with dad.. my tears drop.. it just drop.. i was unable to control it..

The fact now.. even though how much i tried to let him feel better.. the fact is he might not have more than 2 years with us.. i dun wish to believe that.. it seem like a deadline for him.. i prefer to hope.. mircale will appear.. i really hope that.. Please pray with me bah..