hee hee.. i am here again.. hmm going to do a short blog.. now i know my friends who i seldom met up update themselve through my blog.. hmm then i so long no blog you all must be very sianz huh? no story to listen.. haha well.. it all happen when i gone through friendster and happen to see this frenz.."MJ" (you know who you are).. well read through his blog.. not sure is he talking about me for not blogging.. haha hmm.. well at least it is happy to know there are ppl out there who read my blog.. i am not always just talking to myself.. haha

Ok that all ba.. recently is very fan.. cos work i still not sure whether should i continue or give up.. tired is the thing i cannot accept.. cos tired led to sick.. i am weak ok i admit.. not as strong as in the past.. *sob* one more thing to complain.. i have two ulcers in a row.. sob.. so pain when i smile.. so the best thing is to avoid not to smile loh.. so when you see me dun ask what i am unhappy with k..bleh..

It is a monday again.. So tired.. cos yesterday happens.. alot alot of things.. after i blog those photo up... my mood starts to go down down.. cos i ask Toro san what was he want to ask on saturday.. well.. he found out i lie to him of going hougang point which in the end i turn out to be at parklane.. this hurts him a lot cos i can feel it through the way he grab my hand.. what hurts most is Janet and Japser lie together with me.. he is heart break.. but how did he get to know.. haiz.. i dun understand loh.. i not like going out just with others guys.. and his frenz went to call him to tell him he saw me at parklane.. it is like he is breaking up this relationship..

ok main point is on sunday i told him the truth and about things that be happening tomorrow.. i know he is angry and sad cos when he know about it.. the tears came rolling and asking me did i ever treat him as a bf... why i dun discuss things with him.. i am so sad too.. i know it is my fault.. i dun wanna lie anymore so i told him about tomorrow thigny... Although i did not say about letting him go, and i will go for my "bread" he knows.. and the moment he start to pulls out the ring on his hands.. my tears was out of control.. it keeps falling.. i love him.. i really do.. if not it will not be so hurt when i see what he was doing.. i slap myself for the lie.. i slap myself for hurting him.. slap myself for going for bread and not love...

At the end of the point.. i ask him to give me a week.. to quit this job and all those things that he dun like.. does this show i really love him a lot Diary?? Does that mean i love him more than any other thing?? even to give up my work?? Diary, i am confuse.. can you tell me???

Today is the first day i have given him.. i call him.. he sound happy.. maybe becos at ROM all the happy atmoshpere.. but somehow got those feeling it might be becos he has unburden a lot.. from my side.. now he is only concern what might happen tomorrow.. i am in a mess now.. i dunno what to do..

This the last pic i took today.. well which i should say the best as the cap is able to see .. 

hmm.. i must agree.. without makeup i look so shag.. hahaha.. how i look?? 

So this is the second present i got for Toro together with the elle jacket... My Addias Mao mao 

Ok .. Mainly you see me in this photo.. but what i am trying to show actually is the jacket.. it is a Elle jacket.. with the collar able to "stand" haha.. with this i will not get cold in office le.. and when i receive this gift.. i got another one too..  

With the previous lightstick.. We form "YS N AMY" "Our Memory Four" 

1st July 2005 

Haha.. Ok the cake is a failure.. still manage to make it to be able to eat though.. able to see the Y & X ma?? haha This is "Memory Two" 

This is the so-called "First Memory" We own.. As the Ring is he bought it from Taiwan when he come back.. and the Pillow is i gave him as Bdae Present. 

Hi Diary.. today is already friday... time pass by fast this week... haiz.. actually planning tonight got planning with my dear.. wanted to gave him a surprise but so sad.. last minute got viewing.. have to change everything.. hope he will not be too sad.. well as compensate.. guess i be meeting him tomolo for lunch, dinner, breakfast, lunch and dinner again.. hahah spend more time with him...

hmm mum going to work today.. no more home cook food.. guess i have to start my ta bao life style again.. so sianz.. eat outside until want to vomit le lah..

As for today.. hmm is a special day wor... cos dear got a job as data entry .. he told me very stupid one.. haha but hor he just now while chatting with me a bit louder than usual.. so i sms him after hang up.. haha let him have a feel the feeling i am having when i am at work and not able to chat.. overall his workplace quite good wor.. it is at my ex-workplace and the best is no one is in the office except a new employ auntie too.. haha no pretty gals for him to know.. wahhahaha.. *blehz*

But there a bad news too lah.. from monday onward he be going another workplace to work.. and that is at ROM.. very wuloo hor.. dunno how is he going to transport there le.. haiz..

Ok shall stop here.. i am thinking.. thinking of a surprise for him.. hee hee..

Monday blue.. i am so tired today.. well till now i did not do much work in office.. haiz.. partly a bit angry of my boss.. do you know i have been working on saturday and sunday.. haiz.. last saturday i have work till 6 in the evening.. and he still dun let me off.. kaoz.. keep sms-ing me.. not only my dear Toro is angry .. i am too.. he is just simply too much.. so my decision.. i might just stay for a month here see how.. if things does not change i am gonna leave... i am just a PA only..

Well an update of last saturday.. hmm after i off work i went back home.. took my so-called lunch at 7 plus with my parents.. but i did not ate much.. cos it has already lost appitete le.. den as planned in the morning.. i jio some kaki out to play mahjong.. so here come Janet, Jasper, My dear Toro, KK , Wayne and Jefferry... hmm i must comment KK is a good player cos i sit below him i will never able to get a good titles from him.. as for wayne.. his luck is very good.. that night gues he win quite a lot..

I slept around 3plus that night and left nerd to help me entertain them cos i really cannot take it le.. that day was i slept the least ba.. 7 wake up till 3 plus in the night then sleep...

Sunday morning.. haha mange to wake up at 11 and slack a bit on my bed., then went prepare to go my sis house for viewing.. haha that day was a good day.. and i wore my dear bought for me "de" Addias cap and Elle Jacket.. cos we are watching movie later on.. keke.. very long time i have not step into cinema le.. we watch All about Dogs.. i cannot comment was it a good show.. but the movie is great cos if you like dogs that the show you would want to go for.. *shy* at the very last part of the movie i cried.. haha cos the dog pass away and those feeling from the gal made me recall back many years back when i first had my doggie "Bobby".. kekek..

So after movie off we went back home le.. very very tired.. not enough sleep for the past two days.. Ms Piggy cannot hold back too long le..



PS: Sunday i was very happy.. well it has been a long time ever since i go out with Toro bah.. i have been busy.. or we try to save some cost and not going out.. cos that time i have already stop working.. and those things that happen.. hmm really i enjoy the time with him.. guess it gives me back some feeling when we just start to go into relationship.. sweet...

Yo yo Yo!!! I am back le.. but well might not be able to be update as often as in the past.. Well my new job starts on 7 July 2005, after a three weeks rest.. hmm actually wanted to find some part time to work during that time but some things just happen.. well so i drop it.. hmm... do you all miss my blogging?? kekekek...

As for job.. well quite busy and i am trying to fight for it at this moment of time.. and i am new to it so i have to make more effort to learn.. Quite busy too.. arrange viewing and go with my boss to the viewing.. time at work will be more.. so Toro is always complaining and last night he say i am so stress of work.. even off work le still thinking of it.. want me to relax... haiz.. how? haha i will.. sleeping is a form of relax to me..

Anyway.. haha one happy thingy that i work here i start work at 10 daily.. and end at 6 which normally will not be on time.. haha but i will try not to go for night viewing.. so tired loh..

As for relationship.. haha i still remember 2nd of July 2005, I complain to my dear why nowadays we are like so boring le.. just he come fetch me.. and i have somehow stop those sweet sweet things i have done for him.. and to my surprise that night while i was bathing he do a heart-shaped symbol using light stick.. so sweet.. i was actually going into the room asking him have he on the air-con when i saw that.. haha and i found him in the kitchen drinking water and panting.. haha i did took down a photo of the light stick hope next time i will be able to upload into my blog..

Well ... I still remember there was once i recieve a give that uses light stick too.. hmm he writes some wordings on the light stick and gave me.. keke and bring me to East Coast where he break the light stick and i see those wording.. romantic too hor...??? At that moment i was so touch.. cos i guess i will never think of that surprises.. cannot help to admit.. gers do really like surprises.. but poor guy has to keep thinking of surprise to make the gers happy.. haha but sometime really just a letter of love is enough to make a ger happy le.. really...

Ok ok today i shall update till here.. got to work le.. tataz